so, i'm alone in this world. Don't have a real partner to share it with, friends that don't really care about me and more about themselves, family that doesn't understand, ad no job to at least have something to do during the day.
The guy that I choose to share my life with chooses to fuck other girls. Which not only put a damper on my love, but separates us in a big way. I'm tired of being the one that has to leave when another girl comes over. If u just wouldn't fuck these girls, we wouldn't have these problems, but i guess it's not a problem to him. Either way, he's fucking. But when it affects me seeing him when i haven't for two weeks, it pisses me off! And it seems like he doesn't care at all. It's not like he can tell me that i've been around him for so long and he needs space. I wonder what his excuse will be this weekend. He said i shouldn't be here if someone is gunna piss me off, and I totally understand, but it wouldn't be like that if you didn't make the choices that you did. It's starting to get upsetting. idk what to do...i love him so much, but idk if i can deal with this anymore. If he gets home and pushes me away..idk what i'll do..
my friends (the few they are) are a lot of fun. I just know that they are out for themselves and not me.
family will never understand me and what i've been through. If they knew EVERYTHING that i've been through, they would probably disown me...
i got three people that i can truly count on. My daddy, Sno (the man i love), and Sam (my best friend)
i know God has me always, but i do wish people on Earth did too...
